Official Website

I finally got around to setting up a "real" website. Not that this isn't super informative, but I guess it's not completely "professional". At least, that's what I've been told. So, now I have both a blog and website. Please check it out and tell me what you think:)

http://www.ellameeks.com

Losing a Loved One

I've been MIA for a while and not really of my own choosing. I recently lost my brother and the loss hit me hard. I've lost people I've loved before...my dad, father-in-law, grandparents, friends...But to lose a sibling is such a different and profound loss. I suppose it's because it reminds us of our own fragility. That we are not immortal.

It sounds stupid, we're all adults. We're well aware of the fact that we are not immortal, but when your brother dies, and it's sudden...it just goes to remind you that you were spared today. Your ticket wasn't punched...but it could be. It's the fact that you know it could have easily been you, that makes the loss so much more devastating. I guess it's also very selfish.

I can't even imagine what my mother is going through. No parent wants their child to go before them. She said that she feels his absence in her heart. That though she has all her "chicks" (her term for us kids) around her, she knows one is missing. I used to love to tell people that I was the youngest of seven. The look on people's faces was priceless. I would go on to say that "Well, my mom is Catholic..." and that would always produce a laugh. Now, I have to get used to saying I am one of six. I can't for the life of me wrap my head around it.

Things have slowed down for me. Writing pretty much stopped for a month. There was no desire, plus I had nothing to say. I had just released a new book when he died, but didn't do any promotion for it. I just didn't feel like it. Now after a long break, I've started writing again. I'm working on the third Natalie Miller book. I had plans to have it finished by this month, but that is not going to happen. I've found that I've missed my friends, these characters I created and I need to throw myself into another world and lose myself for a bit.

So, that's my plan. I'm going to write and see where Natalie's crazy adventures lead. It's comforting to fall back into my writing and honestly, it's cathartic. Hopefully combined with time, I'll pull myself from the funk:)

Life: A Novel Available for Presale

I finally put the finishing touches on my new book. I'm super excited (scared and terrified) for you guys to read it. It's a stand alone novel, separate from the Natalie Miller series. This story is a bit  darker, less humorous and at times close to home.

Order here

Now I can finally take a break:)

18 Years!!!! Today!!!

I can't believe it's been 18 years since Buffy first graced our TV's! It just doesn't seem that long ago....It also makes me feel old as fuck. Man, she was such a badass! Super heroines have been coming out of the woodwork lately, but let's not forget about the small little blonde wonder who did it all before the rest.

Bow down.

Now, I'm in the mood to revisit Sunnydale....Gotta fire up Netflix........

Original Team BTVS!!!

So I'm on Tumblr....

I've dreaded this move for a long time...Tumblr has always scared me....but since all the cool kids are doing it, I caved....

http://authorellameeks.tumblr.com/

Now if this is good or bad, who knows?

Please excuse the short length, as I have been fighting sleep all day...never mind that it's daylight savings time....I mistakenly took the wrong allergy pill (NOT non-drowsy, 24 strength!!!) and have paid dearly....

E.

Ugh...Coming Up For Air...Guilt...PTA

I've spent the majority of the past week writing. Not that it's a bad thing, but I feel like I've neglected my life. My son and husband took off for the day to sled in the mountains, while I stayed home with a puking dog and edited a new story. Now I'm left with a headache from a caffeine overload, and my eyes are jacked.

The good news is I've completed my new book. Bad news is that I feel like a shitty parent. So, I think I will take a break for the next 48 hours to reclaim my life. I also need to settle on cover art for the book. I hired someone to design it for me, but I'm not exactly thrilled with the end results. Any other writers out there design their own covers?

Anyone catch Hindsight last week? It was good...really good! Is it wrong that hate Kevin? Can't wait for the next episode. Has it been picked up for a second season???

I need to get back to real life. Which for me means working in my son's classroom and organizing a "Movie Night" basket for the annual school auction. It's really not as bad as it sounds, but I draw the line at being a PTA president. I don't think I have the sunny personality for it. But I do pay my yearly dues, just to make myself feel less guilty. I'll never be a REAL PTA mom. I'm far too much of a Daria Morgendorffer for that.

Besides, this is what the PTA looks like....

As you can imagine, I don't exactly blend in well......

Wish me luck.

(If you didn't already know, I'm a lover of the 90's. Daria was my everything back then and still is now!)

I Love the 90's....VH1's Hindsight

Did you grow up in the 90's? Or do you have an unnatural/unhealthy attachment to that glorious decade? Well, you are not alone. VH1 picked up on all of our pent-up angst and launched the scripted TV show Hindsight. What's the premise? "Becca, as she nears 40, is about to embark on her second wedding to Andy Kelly, but her joy is tempered by the absence of her old best friend Lolly who's a no-show, having dropped out of their relationship years ago." Yeah, the summary is not that exciting, but here's the real deal:

Becca ends up getting transported (via a magic elevator) back in time to 1995, right on the eve of her first wedding to super hot (which I think is subjective) Sean.  In present time she's marrying Andy Kelly, a lifelong childhood friend, and a bit vanilla in her eyes. Becca  believes this is her chance to get her life right. She is convinced that by magically traveling back in time to the place where her life went off the rails (marrying Sean), she may be able to right so many of the wrongs that took place. 

I think we all know her plan is going to implode. I mean, you do not mess with the past. One tiny change can have serious ramification. (Hello, butterfly effect!) Still, it makes for some good TV. Not just that, but it may even send you down your own path of nostalgia. You might find yourself contemplating your own life.

The music is so totally 90's, as are the clothing and hair. Who didn't have or want a pair of Doc Martins? This is the area where Hindsight gets it all right. I love the pop culture references too. Mentions of 90210 (the Original), My So-Called Life, Friends, pagers, raves, AOL!! Yeah, they nail all the biggies.

The cast has great chemistry and I love how the story, dare I say the "real" love story is not about who Becca ends up marrying, but whether she and her BFF Lolly ever reconcile. At least, that's what I'm tuning in to see. Yeah, Becca's hot and smart, but she pulled some pretty shady shit in the day. While Lolly is not a saint, there's a real vulnerability to her character that makes you a bit overly protective. Anyhow, I'm hoping these two crazy kids work out their issues in the past, so that in the future they are together again. 

The show starts out a bit rough, but as time goes on I feel it's starting to get its footing. I love where it is right now and cannot wait for Wednesday nights!

Have you watched Hindsight? What are your thoughts? And if you do watch, do you feel those Domino commercials have hidden subliminal messages? (PIZZA...PIZZA...EAT...CARBS...EAT...)

Hindsight airs Wednesday nights at 10pm on VH1.